Friday, October 21, 2011

God's Plans for Children

Sometimes I wonder what God's plan is for me. Here's why I ask this.

I've never really been a child type know I never wanted children and didn't like watching my friends children. It makes me uncomfortable. And with diaper changing, feeding, bathing, schooling, money, life lessons, friends, boyfriends, girlfriend, whatever. I'm not patient enough for all of that.

Normally, if I see a picture of children I think "cute kid" and go about my business. If people bring their newborns into work to show them off, everyone else runs to the person, me not so much. If I see them fine, if I don't fine.

 [via shesbombb]

But, recently, when I see pictures of babies or children I'm like "oh babies." I get a shooting sensation in my womb. And it's not painful sensation, it's more of a why am I empty, why am I not being used? And I don't know if it's my biological clock ticking, I'm 27 after all.

Or if it God trying to get me in the frame of mind to be a mother. It's strange because before I would think to myself "I can't wait to be a wife." now it's "I can't wait to be a wife and mother." Mind you I haven't been thinking of any of these things consciously, they just pop into my head. Especially, when I see a man with his children. And I think to myself how nice it would be to have a husband and make him a father.


  1. I've enjoyed reading this post very much and appreciate your honesty.

  2. Thank you very much, I'm glad that you enjoyed. I know that there is someone else who feels the way that I do. And know that there is someone who feels the same way might help them.